Michelle Renee Kidwell
12 min readOct 24, 2019


Broken Beginnings: Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine:

“You’re finally going to get to go home.” Nadia said. “I am too, but honestly I am a little afraid, I need to learn to live life without sight outside of the hospital.”

“It will be an adjustment for both of us.” I said, “But we will get through it.” I tried to be reassuring to my best friend despite the fact that I was terrified. I was looking forward to going home but I was also terrified about what it might mean. I knew that some aspects of my life would change, but I had not changed, I was still the same person I used to be, I just happened to be sitting down, and I hope Nadia believed that she was still the same person she used to be as well.

“Yes it will.” Nadia said, between a long silence. I saw the tears forming in her eyes. I tried my best to give her the comfort and support she needed, but at times I felt I was lacking myself.

“I’m going to be here for you.” I said.

“Naomi I am going to be here for you too, I hope you know that I realize this is not easy for you either.”

“I know.” I said softly.

Nadia and I visited for awhile, talking about the way things would be when we got home, praying that somehow we would both get back to some sort of normal life.

I turned to my Bible once I got back to my room and the rehab facility, searching for comfort and Faith:

Yaakov 1 Orthodox Jewish Bible (OJB)

1 Ya’akov, eved (servant) of Hashem and of Rebbe, Melech HaMoshiach Adoneinu Yehoshua; To the Shneym Asar HaShevatim (Twelve Tribes) in the Golus, Shalom! [DEVARIM 32:26]

2 Consider it all simcha, my Achim b’Moshiach, whenever you fall into various nisayonos (tests, trials),

3 Because you have da’as that the emunah you have, when it is tested, produces savlanut (patient endurance).

4 And let savlanut be shleimah in its po’al (work) in order that you may be mevugarim (mature, grown up) and complete, lacking in nothing.

5 But if any one of you is lacking chochmah (wisdom), let him direct tefillah (prayer) and techinot (petitions) to Hashem, the One whose matanot (gifts) are given generously and without grudging, and chochmah will be given to him…



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