I’ll Stumble, I’ll Fall, I’ll Get Up Again: Chapter Forty:
“Alyssa, are we going to dance again?”
“Of course Ana.” I assured my little sister. I still wasn’t very coordinated, but Ana didn’t care about that.
“Does it hurt Alyssa?”
“Sometimes it does.” I admitted. I knew that Ana could see through anything less than the truth. People had a habit of giving Ana far less credit than she deserved.
“Does it hurt right now Alyssa? Are you sad?”
“I am a little sad, but I’m going to be okay Ana. I have you and Mom, and I’m better now. If they hadn’t taken my leg I could have gotten very sick, because of an infection from the accident.”
“I’m glad you didn’t die Alyssa, I would have been sad and missed you.”
“I’m glad too. I would have missed you too. I want to see you grow up Alyssa, I want to see you grow up, and reach for the stars.”
Ana about plowed me down, when she came to hug me, knocking us both onto the bed. She began laughing and soon I couldn’t help but joining in with her laughter. It felt good just being silly with my little sister , little things like that mattered more when you faced loosing the people that mattered you learned to appreciate the Little things more.
I went into the Kitchen to grab a bottle of water, and a snack. I was going to write. I had a deadline to meet and I was determined to meet the deadline. Despite everything I was determined to meet it.
I settled back at my desk, waiting once again for the words for the words to flow but they did not always come so easily. Sometimes the words simply would not flow.
“Are you busy Sienna?” Samantha came into my office, to check in on me.
“I should be, but I’m not.” I said. “I guess I just kind of lost the flow. Did you need anything?”
“I guess I just needed company. I’m worried about what things are going to be like when we Mom comes home. I’m worried about how she’s going to cope.”
“She’ll be okay Samantha, she has all of us to lean on.”
“I know you are right, but I’m still a little nervous about it. I want her to be okay.”