Like Letters Written in the Sand: Part Forty Five

Michelle Renee Kidwell
5 min readSep 25, 2022

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“I dreamt I was a child, but this time it was different, I had the childhood I could have only dreamed of, the parents who loved me unconditionally.”

Clarence nodded, feeling his heartbreak thinking that her happy childhood was only thing of dreams. She did not have that safety net to fall back on, when things got tough.

“I’m sorry a happy childhood was only a thing of dreams.” Clarence said, gently squeezing Anna-leis hands.

“I have everything I could have dreamed of, and more.” Anna-leis said, looking at Clarence, his eyes held such passion, such love. She had no idea what she had done to deserve a man like Clarence but she counted herself as blessed.

“You deserved to have a better childhood than you did, no child deserves to be treated the way your parents treated you.”

“I know that now, you helped me to see that, but as a little girl I thought it was something I did.”

“Sweetheart I am sorry you were ever made to feel that way. You didn’t deserve that, no one does.”

Anna-leis nodded, choking back tears without knowing why. Her emotions often came without warning and she had to remind herself, she was safe, she no longer had to bury her feelings as she did when she was a child.

Clarence wrapped his arms around. Anna-leis once again reminding her he was her safe place.

“The strangest things set me off.” Anna-leis sighed. “The strangest things trigger me.”

“Anna-leis there’s nothing strange about what your feeling, your emotions are completely normal.”

“I wish things had been different.” Anna-leis said. “But I wouldn’t want anything to change if it meant not having the life I have now, all the struggles, the losses, it brought me here.”

“Sweetheart, I am happy you are happy now, despite everything you have gone through, despite your life being flipped upside down in an instant.”

“But my life is better now.” Anna-leis said. “Despite the struggles, despite losing my legs, and…



Michelle Renee Kidwell

Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge in the light: Helen Keller