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Shadows that Lurk in the Light: Chapter Thirty Five:
Chapter Thirty Five:
I was getting stronger physically and emotionally, but it wasn’t always easy. It was hard to deal with the reality of what happened. There were times when the shadows still played the games, the shadows of my memories of what happened to me and especially what happened to my parents. While I’m still alive to tell my story, most of his victims aren’t.
I’m struggling with the shadows today, probably because we have a court date coming up, even if it’s virtual, I don’t like seeing this man. I don’t want to sit around feeling sorry for myself, because that’s like letting him win, and I don’t want that. I can’t let him control me like that.
Deliah was struggling too, which was another reason I needed to be strong. After she was strong for me after I was shot, the least I could do was be strong for her and myself. Knowing I had God on my side made all the difference.
Deliah and I are both struggling, Lord. It’s nerve-wracking. Although Deliah still feels guilty about not being able to hear her parents that night, I doubt they would’ve cried even if she could’ve heard them. I wish she would understand that, that there was no need to feel guilty over something she has no control over.
