Giving up was easy, but when that man had eluded other victims, murder victims, that was not an option. I was still alive to tell what I had lived through, they weren’t.
Even though we were both in danger, Deliah was backing me. But these victims deserved justice just as I did, but they weren’t here to fight for themselves. My experience had taught me that they deserved justice.
“I appreciate your understanding that it would be easy to leave, that we could give up, but that’s not an option. Not until his other victims are found, and until they receive justice.”
“Deliah, you are doing the right thing, I never doubted that, but I don’t want to see you hurt again. I understand why you must do this. These families deserve justice too, but I can’t face losing you again.”
“I’m not going anywhere.” I assured her. I will fight for myself and them. It’s time to fight for justice, I’m tired of being afraid.”
“Tracey, I’m here for you and I’m going to help you. His confession to you has already been reported to the authorities, they have the answering machine, now we wait.”
It was true that I had the same concerns as my sister, but I was tired of living in fear and being controlled by a monster behind bars. It was frightening, of course. The reality of what this man was capable of was all around me. Whenever I struggled to do something that came easily before that mad man’s bullet shattered my spine, I thought of him. But I couldn’t let that be all I thought about, I had to get back to living.
“Thank you for understanding, Tracey. Thank you for supporting me. Even though none of this has been easy, knowing that I always have a shoulder to lean on has made it a lot easier. I hope you know you can rely on me.”
Thank you, Lord, that I have you and my sister. Without my faith and without my sister, I would have given up long ago.
“It takes strength to fight, Tracey. This has not been easy, but I’ve always known you were strong.”
“I don’t always feel strong, there are times when I feel weak, but I know I have the Lord and you, and without that I couldn’t make it.”